Bismillah....
Assalamualaikum....
Alhamdulillah....sehingga ke hari ini aku masih lagi diberi peluang untuk bernafas dan menikmati nikmat yang ada di dunia yang sementara ini. Aku bersyukur kerana masih diberi peluang untuk aku belajar dan merasai semua ini....mungkin ini bukan yang termanis untukku....tp ak bersyukur kerana dengan belas dan kasih dariNya aku diberi peluang untuk mengubah dan belajar dari apa yg berlaku dalam hidup aku selama ini....sungguh pun bukanlah senang untuk menjadi diri aku....tapi ak masih bersyukur kerana aku masih aku dan aku masih punya orang yang bersimpati dengan nasibku....
Masih ada yang sayangkan aku....biarpun selama ini mereka2 ini tidak begitu mengambil berat tentang diriku....itu yg aku fikirkan...tp semua ini banyak mengajar aku....sesungguhnya aku amat bersyukur kerana bertemu dengan insan2 yang berhati mulia ini....
Ya Allah...segala musibah yang terjadi ke atas diri aku....aku redha....
mungkin ini kifarah dari dosa2 aku selama ini...sesungguhnya aku insan yg kerdil dan lemah....sering melakukan kesilapan....janganlah Engkau jauhkan aku dari kasih sayangMu....ya Allah....
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
Mask
Aren’t we all living behind a mask, hiding our true feelings from the world, putting up a brave front so we appear strong when deep down we are vulnerable. Knowing this, do we keep up appearances or face reality?
a little....
little did you know that…
there is always a little truth behind every ‘just kidding’
a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering’
a little emotion behind every ‘i don’t care’
a little knowledge behind every ‘i don’t know’
and a little pain behind every ‘it’s ok’
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
neither one of us
It's sad to think
We're not gonna make it
And it's gotten to the point
Where we can't fake it
For some ungodly reason
We just won't let it die
I guess neither one of us
Must be the first to say good-bye
I keep wondering
What I'm gonna do without you
And I guess you must be wondering the same thing too
So we go on
We go on together
Living a lie
Because neither one of us
Must be the first to say good-bye
Everytime
I find the nerve to say I'm leaving
OLD MEMORIES
Those old memories
Get in my way
Lord knows
He's knows only me
That I'm decieving
When it comes to saying good-bye
That's a simple word that I just cannot say
There can be no way
This can have a happy ending
So we just go on
Hurting and pretending
Convincing ourselves to give it just one more try
Coz neither one of us
Must be the first to say
Farewell my love
Goodbye......
We're not gonna make it
And it's gotten to the point
Where we can't fake it
For some ungodly reason
We just won't let it die
I guess neither one of us
Must be the first to say good-bye
I keep wondering
What I'm gonna do without you
And I guess you must be wondering the same thing too
So we go on
We go on together
Living a lie
Because neither one of us
Must be the first to say good-bye
Everytime
I find the nerve to say I'm leaving
OLD MEMORIES
Those old memories
Get in my way
Lord knows
He's knows only me
That I'm decieving
When it comes to saying good-bye
That's a simple word that I just cannot say
There can be no way
This can have a happy ending
So we just go on
Hurting and pretending
Convincing ourselves to give it just one more try
Coz neither one of us
Must be the first to say
Farewell my love
Goodbye......
PS - dis lyrics i would like to dedicated to him...its been so long we try to make it happen...but i think dis must be the end of our chapters...i don't want living in a lie...its really hard for me to say good bye...dis lyrics would be da everything i want to said to u coz dis is wat i really feel right nw....i know...if i stay...neither one of us dont hv strength to say it...let me be the one who walk away....
i really hope u'll be happy with everything u hv now....we dont hv to pretend n living in a lie again....
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
my favorite movie n tv channel
sometime we cannot realize that everything around us taught us about life....so people if i said that i love watching Disney cartoon doesn't me im not growing up.....its taught me to nvr stop believing in my dreams...^_^
Thursday, June 9, 2011
just becoz
I’m not a robot. Don’t expect me to be perfect all the time. Just because I posted something you didn't like doesn't mean you have to start sending me hate mail. This is my blog and you’ve got nothing to do with it. I’d rather be myself than some barbie doll.The pressure is killing me.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
realize
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.
But I can't
spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell
it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd
be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what
I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other
now.
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I,
didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's
never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.
If you
just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd
never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.
It's not
always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If
you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same
for you.
If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be
perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I
just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just
realized
If you just realize what I just realized
OoOoOOo
missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now
Realize, realize
realize, realize
Saturday, June 4, 2011
pretending....
yeah i'm tough...it's been awhile i keep doing dis..pretending that everything was perfect n fine....i dont know how long i can keep doing dis to myself...sometime it feel really tired...but what other option that i hv????
i'm good pretending to everyone...but i cant cheat myself that i'm not ok....
one chance in life....
becoz we only hv one chance in life....we hv to choose wisely....don't worry if we make a mistake...coz nobody perfect...
Friday, June 3, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
JUNE
wow...so fast...dah jun skang...byk lg bende nk kene buat....hope i can finish everything before its to late...
People...would u be honest...
it would be easier if someone be honest to me rather, i keep wonder something gonna be happen between us...but actually not...it is very sad when someone like me keep wonder maybe one day everything that we plan gonna be happen or senang cerita happy ending...but it is not a fairytale...
like people always say....kita just merancang...but it would be easier if we know early...so we don't have to waste our time n can spent it wisely for other thing that would make us happy....
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
rule of a lady #87
yeah...i love this rule.....it takes me a few years to wonder on something that what other people told me about u....and today after i know everything about u...i am really disappointed...bcoz for a few years i keep wonder n i think that everyone lie to me....but in the end i realized that u r d one who lie me from the begining....
grrrrr.....
lately...aku sgt bengang n marah sgt kat someone...bile tgk muka dia je rasa mcm nk pelempang...dah la muda dari aku..then tunjuk besar kepala n tak hormat org....ak kadang malas la nk ckp...tgk cara pakai sikit punye la....tp perangai lembu lg elok kot....sia2 jer tgk mcm tu tp perangai mcm taik....
yes aku sgt marah ngan dia....buat semua benda tak mintak kebenaran dari aku...main ikot keputusan sndr...mcm la mak bapak dia yg bayar yuran ak kan...igt2 la skit...i tak mintak duit mak bapak ang la nk lepak kat sini...tp hormat skit org lain yg ada kat sini....jgn igt nk tunjuk baik n belas kasih ang kat org buat org lain tak rasa selesa....ape....mak bapak depa tu bayar yuran aku gak ke ape????
skarg ni buat nk main kasar ngan ak...ikotkan hati aku...memang ak takmo beralah...mau je ak angkat tangan or jerkah jer org yg bangang mcm dia....tp pikir balik dr ak marah org yg sedia dah bodoh buat ape...dah memang keturunan br turun dari pokok so susah la nk masuk ngan org mcm ak....
someday...i hope that dia disappear frm my life n hope kukout' macam ni ak dah tak jumpe dah...klu jmpe mai aku sepak terajang jer....kadang ada gak rasa nk buat dajal kat dia smpai dia tak tahan n ambek tali gatung diri dia sndr....senang abes cite.....tp mcm org ckp la...org yg br trn dari pokok ni memang susah....mcm red indian dapat senapang...punya la mangkaq...
Sunday, May 29, 2011
just go....
yes...u leave me before without a reason....n u come back with a lot of reason n told me that what happen before was a mistake n misunderstanding...but then u still keeping secret until today...thank to God...coz He open my eyes...see and realized that everything happen between u and me was a mistake...until today, u still cheating on me....u keep telling me that what happen before was my mistake becoz i choose to leave u to something better...but u keep chasing me until today....why don't u leave me alone n let me choose my own way...n please don't mess with my heart again n again....
never regret of anything....
everything happens for a reason....i never regret it....just deal with it..maybe it's take time...but...i know if it's supposed to happen..it will...
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
all i've learned past few years....
it's true...all these years...i learn so many thing....just not to depend to other people...just stand up on ur own feet...coz after a few years...no one care about what u think n what u do....
Be a better person
i'm not trying....i have to....everything i do...i cannot just trying to be...but i should do it...
we don't know if we not start to do thing...just not say it...u have to do it...
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
yeah....i'm free now...
i'm so tired staring my lappy everyday trying to finish my 2nd draft...n yes...i can make it within 1 week i already finish 3/5 of my chapters n submit to my supervisor....n now i have another week trying n struggle to finish all the chapter n submit...than i have time to relaxing n slow start my new project...ganbatte...chaiyok to myself.....^_^
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